I realized today after several bouts of tears, and 40+ hours of no sleep that I need to change my perspective. In life, I will always go through things that I didn’t expect to go through. And I will probably never be where I expected to be at any given moment. So rather than being depressed about it, I need to change my perspective about it.
I need to stop hoping/expecting my life to be in a certain place when it’s not meant to be. I need to stop stressing about not being able to find a job and focus on the fact that I will eventually find a job. I need to stop stressing about the fact that my ex cheated on me and abandoned me maliciously with no remorse, and start focusing on MY happiness. I need to stop worrying about the drama with my brother, because the reality is, my family will always be there for each other. And most of all, I need to stop stressing about being so broken and depressed, and focus my attention on what steps I’m going to take to get myself out of it.
The first step is acknowledgement.